what a long road

free

It is dawn

The last of the night drips off of the moon and I find myself conversing with the remaining stars speckled here and there on the indigo canvas - conversations mixed with a Bin Shiraz, a green stuffed cigar and the occasional split from reality - my ears are filled with Miles and Coltrane - Hayes and Cooke - soulful classics that gloriously blend with the sounds of the early morning traffic - I am free -

- like the birds in flight rustled from their nest by the passing jet - just as free as the smoke that billows from the buildings across the river - I am free - from any constraints - any issues - any drama - any complaints - I am free

- free like the wind
- free like a balloon floating through the air
- free like a spirit released
- free like
- free like

me
I have always enjoyed this time of day - just me and the remaining stars toasting the next blessed dawn - the night escapes us like a thief in the night - cloaked by the rising sun - the warmth of the new horizon breaks open a smile across my face

- and I am free

four eyes

some believe that..

love is blind

I say..

it blinds those that believe in it

"You're blind baby, you're blind from the facts on who you are

'cause you're watchin' that garbage!" - "She Watch Channel Zero" Public Enemy, 1988

he says/she says

· how can we get back to the place that existed before now ·

she says:

I used to love you

he says:

I still do

she says:

You don't want to love me

he says:

I still do

she says:

You don't know what love is

he says:

I still do

she says:

I need more

he says:

I still do

she says:

I have found another

he says:

he says:

he says:

he says:

- I Say:

I am lost without you - time stops when you are not there - my heart misses a beat where it once skipped when you were here - take me as I am - no return for damaged goods - love me unconditionally - feast on my weaknesses - I ask one thing specifically -

Will you

love me even if I don't love me?

Can you look past all of my insecurities my handcuffs and possibly, possibly...

love me

even when

I don't

love me?

she says:

I still do

he says:

I used to love you

she says:

I still do

he says:

You don't want to love me

she says:

I still do

she says:

she says:

she says:

she says:

she says:

- you never listen

he says:

- you never hear me

she says:

- I am always last

he says:

- you are the beginning and end

she says:

- show me

he says:

- while we are saying - we are not loving - we are not living - we are not - sharing - we - are - not - we -

she says:he says:she says:he says:she says:he says:she says

how can we get back to the place that existed before now

- that place called

- we -

thoughts

I remix the elements of nature and share with you the results

¦soul¦heart¦water¦sound¦love¦peace¦

My soul is etched with chords of my ancestors song and my heart beats to the rhythm of the river. The tranquility of my youth; replaced by the reflection of my adult form, seems so far away. I miss the sound, like one would a true love. It is my yearning, a peaceful journey through life and the rewards for the days that I breathe in the time of this existence. My spirit is filled with love and I cannot deny the numbing feeling that I am left with.

my resolution

~ continue to bless me Lord, until time exists no more ~